Chapter 8: AAAAAAAAAAA

So why me?

it's kinda messed up you want to go back to talking Big Brother..

Let's talk game - I don't want us to be bullshitting each other the rest of it.
I can see right through you saying that. You were pushing all kinds of narratives about me.. did you forget you were the one to say sand cats name to me?
It's pretty frustrating considering the fact that I wanted to work with you but was hearing all sorts of things.

Since you were oh so straight with me?
I don't understand, there wasn't a fourth vote for it and you weren't even actually wanting to go with the SandCat plan. Like I wasn't gonna fight seal about it?

You never replied to me before tribal to even confirm any sort of plan. I was the vote and I knew it right there.
I was straight with you until I heard basically the exact words I said to you about sandcat came back around to me.

Hey Meerkat. Straight-up, I'm sorry, because I've not really done you right at all since we met back up.

I got rather ill the moment we got into the joint TC, and I'm still recovering from that while job stuff is also picking up pretty immensely - I've been pretty sorely lacking with others as well. But that's not really fair to use as an excuse when I was able to at least coordinate with others during that TC. So you're overdue an explanation from my end.

I imagine Harp Seal told you that he and I were close on Aviary - it sounds like the two of you had a big alliance back then and were possibly close from even before Paddock. Rabbit mentioned about the big Soccer Alliance, and I was fairly disappointed that this wasn't something that Harp Seal ever mentioned to me since he was saying we were tight. He was implying that Jerboa was like taking over the tribe and stuff, and that enough people were in the 'minority' (aka his majority) that we should be able to get them together to turn things around. I don't really blame you for not mentioning these things, because I wasn't expecting you to, but I kind of did from Harp Seal based on the expectations he sat up.

This sort of put me in a position of not trusting Harp Seal so much. And when he immediately came up and was like 'come be the fourth member of our alliance!', I was fairly disillusioned. Although Pika and Lorry had voted me the round before, they had at least made it clear where they stood with me and I felt something real was achievable there. Whereas it felt a bit like Harp Seal, Capy and yourself all came in in lockstep with each other, in a way that made me very hesitant considering what I'd already seen from Harp Seal before. I also heard fairly quickly that Capy was wanting to target me before that was shot down, which didn't help matters. So I decided to make a move against Harp Seal.

But through all of that, I don't feel like you've wronged me, and I definitely feel like I've wronged you. So I'm sorry for that. The worst thing you've really done to me is, uh, be aligned with Harp Seal who I didn't trust. While I've gone blank on you with no explanation and voted out your ally.